My partner, Steven Eye, serves for Tucson's community from 22 years.
In the downtown he found an abandonned building, and turned it into world class art and music venue, where extatic energy happens. You can see here all the time changing art of over a hundred of local artists, and to experience music from all over the world. Many of great musicians were starting from playing here. He devoted his life for inspiring and empowering of others, throuh creating this sacred space, and bringing back goddess culture through his sculptures. Something about six years ago city officials promised for him that they will help with making sure that he or non profit organization is owning the place, so it is left for the community and is turned into museum, preserving his work. All this time he worked very hard fixing place for his own money, and sculpting it all over, being inspired deeply by the art nouveau sculptures of Praque. As the time goes by, and the state wants to sell properties with our building included, the city has its chance to save us before public auction. However this never happens because of other priorities..like for example saving already dead building demanding at least couple millions of dollars to exhumate it. This was for us very heart-breaking news. It is very sad that people in power by their ignorance are not able to appreciate a great treasure, hidden right in the city's heart!
In recent time we went for a public auction. Steven was working with Warehouse Arts Management Organization, and together they managed to organize funding for buing the place.
Few days before the auction we went to nature, to ask about some messages and guidance in our matter. In the first day I spent some time meditating in the cave. It is like my magical rock sanctuary, with one of the most amazing trees growing in the middle. I figured that now it is also house of the snake. In one place I found fragments of eaten animal, some fur and paws. I was travelling very deeply within, sittng on my rocky throne, exploring the invisible realms. I saw some of very intricate and complex spherical life forms made of light. In the infinite Now I felt like I'm travelling into the future, where again, like the ancient ones, I am open more fully into my real potentials. I also connected with the tree, I became the tree, and all the rocks around became the mirrors of my mind. Leaving the cave I felt like I was born again from the womb of the Mother. My old ego dissolved and again I was brought to the union with my True Self, opened to the universal love.
Coming out from the shadow into the light, I found myself in a true paradise!
Everything was so beautiful! I filled myself with a deep gratitude. For the first time I took with me into this place my video camera and tripod. I was setting everything up. In the first half minute of my filming I suddenly hear the sounds of a huge wings. I look up, and I see three bald eagles circling around the beach, exactly where I was!! I just couldn't believe it! It was the first time when I saw this magnificent and powerful birds in the wild! I felt so blessed, and in the right place, in the right time..
When the night came we made our first fire after the summer. Giving thanks for all those on the other side, and asking higher powers for assistance, we did our own ghost dance, dancing our visions with intent.
In the next day at morning one of my first sights it was grey heron.
Later bald eagles came back! This time two of them were chasing a raven.
My partner had also interesting encounter with the prey of the eagle, the fish, probably rainbow trout. He was kayaking and she was hanging out with him by half of an hour. He was even touching and petting her and she was coming back!
In one moment two military fighter jets flew by so very low below the top of the mountains! Their crazy sounds broke the nature's silence.
On the way back we saw a dead skunk, and one small bird jumped right in front of our car and probably got killed..We saw one of the most spectacular sunsets and one of the most beautiful moons.. A lot of messages, which we were trying to embrace and understand..
In the Night before the auction I have a dream..I keep this little puppy in a box, but he is looking like dying. I am worrying that I am not caring about him well..I am wondering if I gave for him enough of food, or maybe I keep him in the box by too long. Someone is bringing the mother dog. She starts to lick the puppy, and I see him coming back to live. In another scene I see some of my artwork destroyed. I also see myself standing and sending an airplane into the air..It flies up, but very soon it goes more and more down. It turns like a boomerang, and crashes in front of the building where I was! I woke up in perfect time before the auction, and after this dream I knew that not will be so easy. One rich developer became fully committed to buy our building and didn't wanted to let go. We had backing with money, but we couldn't go into a bidding war with him, and to bid very high. We would have to pay in our rent any extra money, if we want to stay, and we couldn't afford it. We just had no chances to compete with his funds and we had to surrender. It was very difficult and painful for us, that anyone with money could just come and buy our place! We heard many stories about this man, and we knew he have pretty bad reputation. Almost everyone fears him. I was thinking that he is exactly like a spirit of bald eagle! It is not a very nice bird..but very powerful..
However we were forced to go beyond all this judgements of other people, as he expressed his willingness to work with us and he wanted us to stay. We thought that anyway owning anything is such an illusion.. This whole experience brought for us many important lessons..we were already in the state of total detachment, and open in surrender to whatever happens.
After coming back from the auction I felt tired, and I took a nap. I remember I was riding my bike up the mountain, and later I found myself very high on the rocks, overlooking a magnificent body of water. There was a crystal clear and very calm lake. The water was like a glass and I could see the bottom very well. Next to it there was flowing the great river. By longer time I was observing its effortless flow. This dream brought a lot of peace into my mind. It reminded for me that we are just moving with the flow of life, and that soon clarity and peace of mind will be attained.
The bald eagle's totem entered our lives and became our new teacher and guide.
And we are not its prey! With time we are more and more clear about hidden order and great potential in the whole situation opening up. It is like a new beginning for us, and vision of the future brings a lot of excitement!!
