some of new work in progress..

I thought that for my better learning how to paint I should make some studies of the nature and its living forms.
Wondering what to choose, I came across of this amazing photograph of iguana, and recreating her in more realistic way seemed for me as such a huge challenge, that's why I knew that THIS IS IT!;)) I think that challenges are direction to go, as they accelerate so greatly our development, and are pushing us beyond our limits. Patterns and colors of this magnificent lizard also were tempting me..
So here it is the lizard unfolding, and coming to life.. she transforms for me into a great teacher, magician, living entity telling me stories..she is like a part of my shadow which I am embracing..
It is interesting to me that few months after starting this painting I encountered the iguana also live!

The other work it is also exploring and embracing of the unknown..

New albums of Aglaia with my photos

Back from Hawaii..

Creative Dreaming

It is very interesting to me that after my yesterdays dream symbolism, I was watching this amazing documentary "Unmistaken Child" about the reincarnation of the Lama Konchog~~;)!!

It wasn't my primal intention to write here most of time about my dream world, but my life in such a high degree is evolving around it! I feel it is worth to share with my own insight and experience, if there is a chance that someone can get inspired to work with own dreams as well. There is way too much people still getting stuck on the basic level of nightmares, without evolving of the ability of creative dreaming! It is such a great hidden potential being wasted!

I feel very blessed that through my life experience I was pushed in this direction. My dreams it was quite a nice alternative and escape from my reality, except that by some years of my childhood I was having often nightmares. Following my intuition and learning from experience I was learning how to overcome it. At first I came up with a trick of rolling my eyes up, when I wanted to escape my nightmare into waking state. Later when I've been chased once by a witch, that wanted to hurt me, I started to talk to her, and we became friends! My nightmares ended up exactly with this dream;) Since this time every night was bringing for me a lot of excitement before my next explorations and adventures. I trained myself early to remember my experiences.
Before I even started to photograph nature, by whole year, almost every day, I was practicing photography in my dreamworld.
Whenever I saw a beautiful view, I was becoming conscious, and I knew that I have always camera with me. The more I was focusing on seeing beauty in nature, the more beauty I saw, and my dreamworld amazingly expanded. All was reflecting into my reality, and I was opening myself more and more into seeing it everywhere. With every time when I've been going to forest, I was setting for myself an intention that I am able to see more and more clearly and deeply. I am amazed how it actually worked, and how it affected me! With time my life was catching up to my dream visions, and my dreams were becoming my reality.

Whole my previous knowledge in this direction was based mostly on my own experience, and I decided now to study this matter deeper, also learning from others, so I can explore more fully from the true potentials. Some time ago universe sent to me this book by Patricia Garfield - "Creative Dreaming". I've started reading it before, and after reading just a little, I had this very lucid dream where I was flying, and I was teaching my partner how to do it as well. Later I get distracted by other books, but now I decided to go back to reading it. I am still not finished, but already I learned a lot, and it is very exciting to put new learning into practice.

Today I had a dream where I've met with my dead grandfather, father of my mother. In reality he wasn't very open or friendly, and I've never felt to him a deep connection. I see him in the room where he used to live by a long time, and he is very nice to me and we are engaging in conversation. He offers to me a gift, a ring with the bright blue stone. I am thinking then that it is very nice from his side, but with this gift it is hard for me to benefit also others, that it is just beautiful thing to look at. I ask him about other gift that will be more beneficial for all. I see he holds a camera, and he hands it to me. By a long time I am looking at the world around me through the lens, and I see all the picture sharpens and gains more focus.
This new camera actually manifested in my reality few days ago! It is for me a big shift for the way I perceive, stepping into the new higher levels. Photography it is such a wonderful tool for evolving our ability to see..
It starts all with the inner landscapes though..

Kepher

Today in my dream I have a walk in the night. I am coming across the most beautiful temple that I have ever seen, all pure white, and basked in a perfect light. Whole building is covered richly with the most magnificent sculptures. I am looking closer, above the gate..I see beautifully carved large mandala, with the ancient Egyptian symbol of scarab with opened wings, carrying the sun! I woke up with the feelings of bliss and amazement by this sight, which imprinted deeply in my mind.
I see this dream as deeply profound, and I know that I have to bring this vision to life through my art.

~~I am dancing at the edge of the worlds~~

Golden Sun

I'm pretty much obsessed in this days listening over and over again to album "Golden Sun" by Lucette Bourdin, and it is really hard to stop! This release is available for free download here.

It is one of the greatest masterpieces I have ever heard! Automatically it jumps to the top of my favourite music!! Actually 'listening' word isn't here very appriopriate..as you can know it only through experience, exploring its infinite depths through going within, and travelling with it with your astral body. It is very powerful, and contains a huge potential for creative use! Masterfully crafted channeling of the divine!
Lucette also gives me a lot of hope and inspiration by her own example. Through her whole life she was a painter, and she creates music only from 5 years!

Now it is for me time to be more focused on my visual arts and expanding my skills in this direction, but there is also an asleep musician in me, waiting on the right time to be awakened!

Solar Culture in the time of change

My partner, Steven Eye, serves for Tucson's community from 22 years.
In the downtown he found an abandonned building, and turned it into world class art and music venue, where extatic energy happens. You can see here all the time changing art of over a hundred of local artists, and to experience music from all over the world. Many of great musicians were starting from playing here. He devoted his life for inspiring and empowering of others, throuh creating this sacred space, and bringing back goddess culture through his sculptures. Something about six years ago city officials promised for him that they will help with making sure that he or non profit organization is owning the place, so it is left for the community and is turned into museum, preserving his work. All this time he worked very hard fixing place for his own money, and sculpting it all over, being inspired deeply by the art nouveau sculptures of Praque. As the time goes by, and the state wants to sell properties with our building included, the city has its chance to save us before public auction. However this never happens because of other priorities..like for example saving already dead building demanding at least couple millions of dollars to exhumate it. This was for us very heart-breaking news. It is very sad that people in power by their ignorance are not able to appreciate a great treasure, hidden right in the city's heart!

In recent time we went for a public auction. Steven was working with Warehouse Arts Management Organization, and together they managed to organize funding for buing the place.

Few days before the auction we went to nature, to ask about some messages and guidance in our matter. In the first day I spent some time meditating in the cave. It is like my magical rock sanctuary, with one of the most amazing trees growing in the middle. I figured that now it is also house of the snake. In one place I found fragments of eaten animal, some fur and paws. I was travelling very deeply within, sittng on my rocky throne, exploring the invisible realms. I saw some of very intricate and complex spherical life forms made of light. In the infinite Now I felt like I'm travelling into the future, where again, like the ancient ones, I am open more fully into my real potentials. I also connected with the tree, I became the tree, and all the rocks around became the mirrors of my mind. Leaving the cave I felt like I was born again from the womb of the Mother. My old ego dissolved and again I was brought to the union with my True Self, opened to the universal love.
Coming out from the shadow into the light, I found myself in a true paradise!
Everything was so beautiful! I filled myself with a deep gratitude. For the first time I took with me into this place my video camera and tripod. I was setting everything up. In the first half minute of my filming I suddenly hear the sounds of a huge wings. I look up, and I see three bald eagles circling around the beach, exactly where I was!! I just couldn't believe it! It was the first time when I saw this magnificent and powerful birds in the wild! I felt so blessed, and in the right place, in the right time..

When the night came we made our first fire after the summer. Giving thanks for all those on the other side, and asking higher powers for assistance, we did our own ghost dance, dancing our visions with intent.

In the next day at morning one of my first sights it was grey heron.
Later bald eagles came back! This time two of them were chasing a raven.

My partner had also interesting encounter with the prey of the eagle, the fish, probably rainbow trout. He was kayaking and she was hanging out with him by half of an hour. He was even touching and petting her and she was coming back!
In one moment two military fighter jets flew by so very low below the top of the mountains! Their crazy sounds broke the nature's silence.

On the way back we saw a dead skunk, and one small bird jumped right in front of our car and probably got killed..We saw one of the most spectacular sunsets and one of the most beautiful moons.. A lot of messages, which we were trying to embrace and understand..

In the Night before the auction I have a dream..I keep this little puppy in a box, but he is looking like dying. I am worrying that I am not caring about him well..I am wondering if I gave for him enough of food, or maybe I keep him in the box by too long. Someone is bringing the mother dog. She starts to lick the puppy, and I see him coming back to live. In another scene I see some of my artwork destroyed. I also see myself standing and sending an airplane into the air..It flies up, but very soon it goes more and more down. It turns like a boomerang, and crashes in front of the building where I was! I woke up in perfect time before the auction, and after this dream I knew that not will be so easy. One rich developer became fully committed to buy our building and didn't wanted to let go. We had backing with money, but we couldn't go into a bidding war with him, and to bid very high. We would have to pay in our rent any extra money, if we want to stay, and we couldn't afford it. We just had no chances to compete with his funds and we had to surrender. It was very difficult and painful for us, that anyone with money could just come and buy our place! We heard many stories about this man, and we knew he have pretty bad reputation. Almost everyone fears him. I was thinking that he is exactly like a spirit of bald eagle! It is not a very nice bird..but very powerful..

However we were forced to go beyond all this judgements of other people, as he expressed his willingness to work with us and he wanted us to stay. We thought that anyway owning anything is such an illusion.. This whole experience brought for us many important lessons..we were already in the state of total detachment, and open in surrender to whatever happens.

After coming back from the auction I felt tired, and I took a nap. I remember I was riding my bike up the mountain, and later I found myself very high on the rocks, overlooking a magnificent body of water. There was a crystal clear and very calm lake. The water was like a glass and I could see the bottom very well. Next to it there was flowing the great river. By longer time I was observing its effortless flow. This dream brought a lot of peace into my mind. It reminded for me that we are just moving with the flow of life, and that soon clarity and peace of mind will be attained.
The bald eagle's totem entered our lives and became our new teacher and guide.
And we are not its prey! With time we are more and more clear about hidden order and great potential in the whole situation opening up. It is like a new beginning for us, and vision of the future brings a lot of excitement!!